First day with my baby

On Feb 28th, 8.30 in the morning, i was in a bed in a hospital room.I started realising that i have become a mom, a responsible mother..and i have so much responsibility for my child. But i didnt see my child till 10.00 o'clock. I was very eager to see that hero who was inside me for more than 40 weeks, all time kicking me and sometimes make me cry with pains.

My mom and my mother-in-law was with me but i wanna see my hari soon. I was keep on asking to my mother-in-law when he wil come...

You know i realise the world truth it was in fact each and every women in this world realise the pain of motherhood. I even cried after seeing my mom and started asking me how much pain i gave you mom sorry ma.

As it was a few months back, i look like this ..



Now i felt that i have become slim .. but its not like that .. still i look as if i m pregnant ..

Then i started crying to one of the nurses that i want to see my son.She told me that my son got fever because of some problem during surgery. i really shocked to hear that .. suddenly dr.Saidevi came and explained me that he needs to be in a hot room to bring him to a normal temperature. i requested her that i wanna see him at least once.

She told me that she wil arrange for that and asked me not to talk and take rest for few hours. But i tried to sleep, it was a dream that i wanna see him once.

A few people, his aunt,his father and other relatives came to see me.. i didn't talk to anyone ..

a few hours after, his cousin raja, his friend sujith, sujith's sister and parents came to see me, i just woked up and spoke to them a few words.. they went to saw my baby, they told me that he is very cute,bubbly and charming and he looks like hari.

Now my curiosity goes beyond a limit, i want to see that cute fellow.. when i will..i just cant control my feelings , love for him .. it was indeed a mother's love for a baby that should be showed immediately :(

i cried inside and smiled outside..and finally hari's aunty requested doctor to send that cute boy to my room . doctor accepted with lots of conditions.. That we should avoid lots of people in that room ..

Everything accepted .. the cute boy came to my room with 2 or 3 nurses around him.. he is covered with a white cloth, looks very pink , very bubbly, charming, smart boy , he is around 3 kg 500gms , looks so bubbly .. very cute ... finding words to describe him :)

You know i m not able to hold him in my hand .. two of my hands are injected for glucose and blood.. i just see him and ask one of the nurse to take him too closer to me and i kissed him for the first time ..

A nurse told him " Dae see ur mom" everyone in that room smiled .. but i cried ..
because i m unable to hold him .. lemme wait for some more days .. few days 3 or 2 days ..lemme wait

He saw me for the first time .. his eyes are blue really very cute eyes .. big eyes .. big head ..looks like a hero :) yeah every child to his mom looks like a hero ..

You know what its really a tough time .. sleepless nite for the first time in my life . i use to sleep all the time .. i love to sleep always i got lot of scolds from my parents ..

I love to sleep and imagine . i usually in my imaginary world .. its very difficult to be in reality . half of my life is in imaginary world .. i imagine as if i m a heroine in this world

i sacrifice my sleep for my son .. we (me,my mom and my cousin sister) had a very tough time with my son on the very first day.

he cried a lot and lot i donno why he is crying .. i need to feed him often so i didn't sleep properly .. Those days are really tough days ..

He is such cute boy i cant even see him crying crying .. we called nurse around and asked why he is crying like this.. they told us its very difficult for the child to be in a new environment

i begged him like "Please dont cry da please.." i also cried with him .. even he refused to have milk also ..

The whole nite went like this ..crying sleeping then crying sleeping ...