First travel with Sarvesh in Cheran express

Sleepless night, restless day, every day went like this when I was in my parent’s home and my mother-in-law’s home. I just can’t imagine how I sacrifice my sleep for my Sarvesh. On May 8th, we have planned to go to Chennai. Everyone in his home and my home worried how I will manage with a small kid. But I was confident that I will manage everything with that cute fellow.

We have planned like this—we need a grandma to bath him and a maid to help me in household works. Hari started searching for two people near my home. We are very close to our neighbor -Karthi and family. Karthi is my colleague, so we have become very close to his family members. Mrs. Chitra – Karthi’s mom helped me in so many things when I was pregnant and she showed so much interest towards my kid. So, she requested a grand ma to help me and finally Hari spoke to her and told what works she has to do.

Everything was ready in Chennai, we started from Coimbatore. My brother, raja and I started on May 7th 10.00 o clock night in Cheran express towards Chennai. I prepared everything for him, Sarvesh use to have lactogen sometimes, so I have a flask of hot water, lactogen powder and a small bottle of sugar.

He was fully covered with a yellow color bed; this was a new one which is available in market to take new born babies comfortable. We have to place the baby in the center of the bed, there are two zips available at the left, right and bottom, and it should be closed after the baby is placed. There is one zip at the top to cover the baby’s head.

Everything was set properly; I was scared to take him in train. We were in AC coach, so he wore socks, shouter, gloves etc etc. He didn’t make any noise till the train starts. At exactly, 2.00, he started crying, I get up and make his lactogen very fastly. My brother helped me to make lactogen. He cried as if he was beaten by someone. Finally I managed to make him cool , he then tried to sleep on my lap. I felt very relaxed after he sleeps, then I tried to sleep.

Not bad, everything went very smoothly till we reach our home 

First Bath for my baby

I was there in the hospital for almost a week... Sometimes I enjoyed and sometimes I felt very bored and depressed :(

If my son sleeps, (all time he was sleeping) I felt very bored... After 2 days of my delivery, I felt I should get up soon and take my son. So I tried hard to get up soon. Dr.Saidevi advised me not to get up from bed but you know I can’t control anything. I don’t have control over anything.

If I felt like doing something, I will do it, I won’t think of consequences and moreover I won’t think after that also.

Finally, on March 3rd, in the morning we (me and my baby) are alone in that room. All my injected areas are removed, so I try to get up from the bed, he is lying beside me. I took him. I remember people keep on saying that we should be very careful while taking new born babies that to for the first three months.

I took him very carefully, with my right hand holding his head and the other hand to hold his body. I felt it. He is very lite and moreover they have injected him and that injection needle is still in his hand. It’s very difficult for him to move that hand.

He lost weight because of that fever. I felt upset to see him like that. There was a lot of difference between his appearance from the first day and the fourth day. I felt that he is very flexible; he is more stretchable. Even that single cot is not enough for him. There was no place for me in that single cot. I even requested for double cot :)

Doctor strictly advised not to bath him for at least a week. So he took towel bath twice in a day. I was very happy to do that, because it was very easy.

On March 7th, my in-laws decided to do a pooja for the new boy so they have decided to discharge us from the hospital. I got ready and he was sleeping on my lap. The car has come, I was stepping towards the car, and after long back I saw the sunlight, my eyes got irritated because of the nature light. This cute fellow is sleeping nicely in my cousin’s hand.

He was covered in a pink colour towel and dressed up nicely in blue colour dress. We entered into the hall. He was sleeping all the time. I finished taking bath, finished my breakfast and waiting for him.

The moment which I scared for..., has come... Hari’s aunty was ready to bath him. Bath kid is ready, new towel, new Johnson’s baby soap, new baby oil, and some homemade powder for his bald head. You just can’t see the child while they are taking bath because they won’t stop crying till they finished the bath. I was expecting the same.

He was placed on aunt’s legs. A cup of warm water was poured on him. All were really surprised, he didn’t even shout or cry or make any noise. He was very silent, till they finished the bathing process for him. They put that homemade powder and wash it. Then they rub his hand and leg and bath him with the baby soap, finally they took off his bangles and break it at each end.

Oops I was really happy to see him like this.. with all the usual make ups :)



That was indeed a nice experience with his first bath.

First day with my baby

On Feb 28th, 8.30 in the morning, i was in a bed in a hospital room.I started realising that i have become a mom, a responsible mother..and i have so much responsibility for my child. But i didnt see my child till 10.00 o'clock. I was very eager to see that hero who was inside me for more than 40 weeks, all time kicking me and sometimes make me cry with pains.

My mom and my mother-in-law was with me but i wanna see my hari soon. I was keep on asking to my mother-in-law when he wil come...

You know i realise the world truth it was in fact each and every women in this world realise the pain of motherhood. I even cried after seeing my mom and started asking me how much pain i gave you mom sorry ma.

As it was a few months back, i look like this ..



Now i felt that i have become slim .. but its not like that .. still i look as if i m pregnant ..

Then i started crying to one of the nurses that i want to see my son.She told me that my son got fever because of some problem during surgery. i really shocked to hear that .. suddenly dr.Saidevi came and explained me that he needs to be in a hot room to bring him to a normal temperature. i requested her that i wanna see him at least once.

She told me that she wil arrange for that and asked me not to talk and take rest for few hours. But i tried to sleep, it was a dream that i wanna see him once.

A few people, his aunt,his father and other relatives came to see me.. i didn't talk to anyone ..

a few hours after, his cousin raja, his friend sujith, sujith's sister and parents came to see me, i just woked up and spoke to them a few words.. they went to saw my baby, they told me that he is very cute,bubbly and charming and he looks like hari.

Now my curiosity goes beyond a limit, i want to see that cute fellow.. when i will..i just cant control my feelings , love for him .. it was indeed a mother's love for a baby that should be showed immediately :(

i cried inside and smiled outside..and finally hari's aunty requested doctor to send that cute boy to my room . doctor accepted with lots of conditions.. That we should avoid lots of people in that room ..

Everything accepted .. the cute boy came to my room with 2 or 3 nurses around him.. he is covered with a white cloth, looks very pink , very bubbly, charming, smart boy , he is around 3 kg 500gms , looks so bubbly .. very cute ... finding words to describe him :)

You know i m not able to hold him in my hand .. two of my hands are injected for glucose and blood.. i just see him and ask one of the nurse to take him too closer to me and i kissed him for the first time ..

A nurse told him " Dae see ur mom" everyone in that room smiled .. but i cried ..
because i m unable to hold him .. lemme wait for some more days .. few days 3 or 2 days ..lemme wait

He saw me for the first time .. his eyes are blue really very cute eyes .. big eyes .. big head ..looks like a hero :) yeah every child to his mom looks like a hero ..

You know what its really a tough time .. sleepless nite for the first time in my life . i use to sleep all the time .. i love to sleep always i got lot of scolds from my parents ..

I love to sleep and imagine . i usually in my imaginary world .. its very difficult to be in reality . half of my life is in imaginary world .. i imagine as if i m a heroine in this world

i sacrifice my sleep for my son .. we (me,my mom and my cousin sister) had a very tough time with my son on the very first day.

he cried a lot and lot i donno why he is crying .. i need to feed him often so i didn't sleep properly .. Those days are really tough days ..

He is such cute boy i cant even see him crying crying .. we called nurse around and asked why he is crying like this.. they told us its very difficult for the child to be in a new environment

i begged him like "Please dont cry da please.." i also cried with him .. even he refused to have milk also ..

The whole nite went like this ..crying sleeping then crying sleeping ...

One fine day...

On Feb 27Th 2009, three of my friends from my college came to see me in my home (my parent home).I was really excited to see them.Even then i got some minor pregnancy pains, i forgot everything and chatting with them. They bought me lots of fruits and sweets. it was a enjoyable period. Each and everyone who come to see you when you are pregnant gives you what you wish for. It was a nice enjoyable moment in your lifetime. Every women has to experience this in her life time.It was Naren (our so called Secretary of our department),Divya and Geetha came to see me on that fine day. We took photos and chat for a long time. I hate to be at my parents home (that is in race course, Coimbatore) because i was left all alone at home. My mom goes to office and my dad use to roam here and there. So i was very happy to be with my friends after a long time.

As usual, i started with Naren, who seems to be a perfect man. But actually speaking he is not. If you look at him for the first time, you will say that he is genuine personality. He is such a admirable person and he deserves for it.

My sweetest friend whom i like most is my Geetha, i like her so much from my first year of MCA, we use to talk a lot those days and as days gone, we started maintaing distance because of our posessiveness. I still remember the very first week of our MCA in PSG tech, we both not like our college,staffs,classmates etc etc. We both decided to discontinue MCA and try for a job. we sit together in the last bench and discussed about this. It looks very funny if i think of that day. She is very close to me. I like her so much for her care and love towards me.

Next, is Divya, she is such a wonderful person. she is very cool girl, very matured and lovable person. Though i m not too close to her, she always care for me because she is very close to Geetha.

I love to be with these people on that fine day. I introduced everyone to my father. He knows them very well but i wanna include him in the conversation but he escaped. We chat chat for more than an hour. side by side Naren started doing his work .. eating eating all the time very funny paiyan. we talk about those memorable college days.

We took lots of photos and they promised me that they will send me..till now, i m waiting for that.

I even asked Naren to buy a big gift for my kid after my delivery:)

Its very difficult to send off them, but it was Naren who started ,... "lets move ah??" Then the other two said "yeah its time.. lets move Naren". I feel very bored after they went.

Then as usual, i was talking to my mom and dad for sometime. My neighbour, a smart grandma, we use to call her dadi .. she came and talk with us for sometime. She even make me frightened about my pregnancy, she told all her experiences. As it was one week left for my pregnancy, i started thinking and make me uncomfortable.

Dadi told me that its very difficult if it is a c-section.You try to make it as a normal delivery. I was thinking about this till 10.00 o clock in the nite. Then i had my usual dinner, idily with super tomato chutney. I donno if it is my last dinner :( ....

At about 10.30 i went to my room , i feel very bored and uncomfortable. i donno what happens ..Then to make me normal i called up my hari (my husband), he was very busy in his office. he didnt pick my call. Then finally i called Raja (my cousin) and talk for a long time to make me relax. He make me laugh sometimes. That time i felt that something inside me is trying to come out .. i donno what to do .. i feel the pain but it is very minor pain

Now the time is 11.45, i remembered someone saying that if a baby is born on a friday, it is dangerous to the baby's father. I keep on praying that my baby should born on the next day.

I know it is a delivery symptoms and i wake up my mom. She was very tensed, makes her clam and want me to be calm. Nowadays delivery are always common and nobody worries about this too much. But being a mom, she feels very tensed.

My dad, very very tensed because he likes me so much more than my mom. He called up his friend to drive our car. Meanwhile i called up hari (he is in Chennai) and ask him to come to coimbatore. It was my luck he picked the phone.

I want to be with him in that tough time. Finally we reached the hospital - Sri Guru Hospital in saibaba colony.

I was asked to sit in a chair and we were waiting for Dr.Saidevi .. The time was around 12.30, my mom got irritated and shouted at the nurses. My dad felt very upset to see me with pains.

Saidevi came and she checked me and i felt very comfortable after that. She spoke to my mom for 15 minutes. I felt that it was something problem.

I didnt even worried about that i just prayed to God that my baby should be fine. Doctor then put me a injection to make it a normal delivery. Meanwhile the news was spread to my in-laws, my father-in-law came to see me. He just saw me lying in the bed and went outside.

My mom wrote sriramajayam , sitting near me and praying that everything should be fine. i got pains here and there. Doctor told me that we have to wait for 6 hours for the delivery.

Those six hours is a horrible time for me in my life time. Even then i got pains i keep on calling hari to come fast..very funny thought.

it was nearly 6.00 o clock in the morning, doctor decided to do me a c-section because we (me and my child) is in a critical stage. She told my mom that its 90% chance. My parents started crying more over shouting at all.

I m very cool because my inner soul told me that my child is fine inside. AT 6.30, I didnt able to feel my child's kick inside my stomach.

I even then got worried too much. Saidevi asked my mom to sign a c-section operation form, My mom refused to do so, and finally my dad signed it and told doctor that "I want my child back"

Finally at 7.30, i was in a operation room, i think everyone Will get afraid after seeing that room. I really afraid, tensed .. no words to express, i thought my life is gone. but i still prayed that i want my child soon ..

i want to see my child soon...they put me a injection. very silent, i was half sleep.. i heard a baby's cry .. doctor immediately ask me which child you want .. i said "Any child with good health"..

Doctor told "Smile Ma, Krishna is born for you" That is a boy baby at 7.51 in the morning.

i cried, i donno why i cried . i was very happy because i wish for a boy baby -my little hari has born for me.. my sweet chela kutte has born to save my rest of my life ..

Saidevi showed my son - See your son ...I saw only a bald head baby in that half sleep in a very dark room.

:) happy to see my son and my son is happy to see a new world , released from a dark room :)

I Me myself

I am a working mom enjoying every moment with my kid - Sarvesh. I wanna share my experiences with him thro his blog.